The pop star gave an emotional performance of her new single “Praying,” the first track from her new album Rainbow, her first major record in five years.
“I feel so much right now, I can’t even,” she said before taking the stage. “I was backstage, dancing and punching stuff and crying, and like, I’m just so many emotions, all the time right now.”
She then fought back tears while talking about her new music.
“It’s so personal,” she said. “I’ve written every song on this album and they’re all so personal and this song, I think, is just really important because it talks about me, personally, going through something very hard—lots of very hard things, making it through, not giving up and finding empathy on the other side, which is incredibly hard sometimes.”
“I think this record has quite literally saved my life,” Kesha said about her album. “And I hope you guys like it and I hope you can hear it and I hope it helps people.”
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Kesha sued Luke (real name: Lukasz Gottwald) in 2014, claiming sexual assault and battery. She also sought to invalidate her recording contracts with him. He filed a countersuit for defamation. In 2016, she dropped her sexual abuse claims, while his defamation suit against her continues. In 2015, she and Zedd released a new version of his track “True Colors.” Luke’s Kemosabe Records, his joint venture label with Sony, had given them permission to release the song. Kesha’s new album will also be released Friday—by the company and with Luke’s approval, according to Billboard.
With regard to the title of her new album, Kesha said that for her, color symbolizes hope and that she wanted to bring more of it into her life.
“So now my house is covered in rainbows and like, my life and my body—I have like, 10 rainbow tattoos,” she said.